i just have to write this here so i can just go ahead and clear my mind.
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i hate you
you're stubborn
you like me yet
you don't believe me
you're annoying to the bones.
you cracked me up
you pulled me close
you can be sweet
you can be dumb
you tend to argue
you tend to play games
you misunderstand (almost all the things i say)
i hate you
you conclude too fast
you tend to over think
you hate toms (maybe this is why you hate me too)
you cannot wait
you talk rubbish
you're not a gentleman
you're so mean (almost every time)
you're very childish (specially at this very moment, lol unfriend-ing* me? for what? wtf)
but i like you, and i feel so DUMB! why would i waste my time thinking about you when you have already decided to not talk to me FOREVER? but i cannot pull myself together, somehow for some reason i want you. I REALLY WANT YOU! AND THIS FEELING MAKES ME FEEL MORE ALIVE THAN I WAS BEFORE. that it pains me to see you like this and to feel like this. i don't know how you have managed to do this, i don't even wanna think about it.
i wanted to be with you
i wanted to be needed by you
i wanted to be...
i wanted to be...
i've always wanted to be...
this feels, awkward and hopefull.
really hopefull.
if i send this to you, would you finish this?
or would you stop?
you know? even though, you have tons of bad sides i still like you.
very much. that what you are doing now hurts too much.
too much.
you're too much.
*sigh.
nganong mura man ko nimog ginatigbas sa heart?
sakit gud. kaayo. pls stop.
kung nalibog jud ka, unsa nalang ko?
kung tan-aw nimo mao ni ang pinaka nindot na paagi, naa paman siguroy way na pwede ta maging civilize, we're friends. are we not? lisod gud. makauga ug utok. between us, kinsa paman makasabot? gusto jud tika. that this hurts.
kita najud ang pinakalala na mga tao, na puro weirdo.
ginasabot jud tika, unta sabton pod ko nimo.
dili bya nako kaya naay masuko sa akoa, hilabi na ikaw? kay truly we are something else.
i was shocked and unhappy about this,
hope you can reconsider.
ayaw kog ingna na "mawala lang man kung gustohon nako"
dili mana ginapugos. sayang atong gisugdan, as friends. mauwi lang sa nganga.
i wish i could make you understand
